so let us be a generation that seeks

As I was doing yesterday's QT, one verse caught my eye: "Amaziah did what was right in the eyes of the Lord, but not wholeheartedly." - 2 Chronicles 25:2. At times, I find myself caught between two separate spheres and find my priorities aren't what they should be. I think most Christians do. The ultimate challenge is putting God before everything else and most importantly, before myself. However difficult it might be at times, there is such a beautiful freedom that is ineffable that comes with putting Him at the center of all things. Surrendering oneself before God isn't something that can't be forced upon someone. In the end, it simply comes down to a desire to seek Him and allow Him into one's life. I know as I become more involved in the youth, I can't be living a life that is double-sided. I want my heart to be in the right place, I want to be a Christian outside of my church and home, I want to be wholeheartedly devoted to God.

Pioneers

Tonight was KPCU's first worship practice. In many ways, we are pioneers who are the vanguard in making worship more intimate, more real, and something that is not enacted out of mere obligation during the english ministry service. Only God can transform us - this should be a constant reminder that we cannot do it on our own. All my doubts are cast away, for I know that being a part of the worship team isn't for myself but for the glory of God. All I can do is simply come before Him with my shortcomings and let Him take over. So I put my faith in Him who restores and transforms.

Come clean

So it's been a week since the retreat and by God's mercy, the kids in the youth have been touched by the Holy Spirit. I think we've all become aware that something needs to change in our youth, especially during worship. Change has already begun and growth is inevitable. However, that growth rests on whether we as brothers and sisters in Christ lean on Him for strength and guidance. I don't know what everyone is expecting or what they desire in their relationship with God, but I pray that it could just be a passion to serve Him and experience Him on a daily basis. It's not unusual for kids to come back from a retreat/revival and be renewed in their relationship with Him but slip back into the ways of the world all too soon. So what is the solution to this? To seek Him daily and know that christianity isn't a religion, but a relationship. The greatest thing for me is seeing their eyes opened to the mighty presence of the Holy Spirit and knowing that having a relationship with God isn't a dead relationship, but one that is filled with a desire for more.