a brief interlude

-Finish reading Shirley.
-Read the books I downloaded for free on my Kindle: Ethan Frome, Sons & Lovers, This Side of Paradise, Anna Karenina, The Brothers Karamazov.
-Treat Esther & Yoully out at Honey Cafe.
-Go to the Chicago Symphony Orchestra or go to the city and wander.
-Watch Okuribito.

-Go back to Amsterdam.
-Visit Germany, Turkey, & England.

Honey Cafe maybe next weekend, books & movie will have to wait until break, Chicago before the weather gets too cold, Amsterdam sometime in the near future. Amsterdam, Germany, Turkey, England alone or with boyfriend? ha ha. Probably alone.

close my eyes and go back to that train ride through germany. this song takes me back to this summer. i knew at the time that i would have to delicately store away the memories and emotions and experiences deep in my heart. 

My heart is stirred by a noble theme as I sing to you my noble king

And I ask that you would continue to show me your love, and that it would be endless and endless and endless and that I would walk closer to you than ever before. thank you for your promise that you will be with me until the end of time.

biology

today in biology lab, we were using the microscope to look at various slides, one of which was a pond water sample. i peered into the eyepiece, and amidst the stark background, saw a teeny-tiny organism moving about in all its simplicity amidst green algae cells. and at that moment, i think i fell deeper in love with God.

haven't had a lot of time to process these past couple of weeks. got to talk to my roommate last night and she mentioned that maybe i was in God's net at this point in my life. which totally makes sense, because i feel like i'm under the waves and in a place where i have to desperately go before God. learning a lot about dependency right now and trusting God. but He's got me, and i'm eager to see where he will take me.

Because of your unfailing love, I can enter your house;
I will worship at your Temple with deepest awe.
Lead me in the right path, O Lord, or my enemies will conquer me.
Make your way plain for me to follow. -psalm 5:7-8

I give you my fear, and ask for your peace.
My fear is crippling, and in desperation I seek you out.
Above all else, to go through this season with you by my side.
Continue to break me.
Father, this is my prayer, that i would lift up to you heart worship.