it fills the room, quietly seeps into cracks and into the fabric of inert shapes. it's ok to be quiet and allow yourself to be swayed by heart flutterings and heart particulars. good for you, and me, that sometimes these things are perfectly normal. unnatural thoughts are absorbed into walls and in return, i am fed new thoughts, new romances. it's ok.

 botanica. 

grace, this is the way, now walk in it.
i hear you say this to me lately. i will walk on the path that you have set before me. Lord, i will have nothing else but your love and your presence. through the valleys and across the peaks, walk with me. i pray that you would show me more of who you are this summer. i pray that i would fall in love more and more with you and that it would overflow to others. i pray that you would give me a greater longing for your kingdom to come and that that longing would translate to words and actions that reflect your love. i thank you for growing me and meeting me in my heartache and depression. Jesus, i trust you & i follow you. you are worthy. worthy of my life and worthy of my devotion. that this life would be a pleasing fragrance before you.

Then as I looked, I saw a door standing open in heaven, and the same voice I had heard before spoke to me like a trumpet blast. The voice said, "Come up here, and I will show you what must happen after this." And instantly I was in the Spirit, and I saw a throne in heaven and someone sitting on it. [revelation 4:1-2]

come what may, things are secure. Christ reigns and sits on the throne and come what may, He is with me and beside me. God, I thank you so much for your love. I honestly can't believe that the school year is almost done and that you brought me through the year. sometimes i wonder if the ashes from this year can be made into something beautiful; but God, I know that you are able. I don't know what you plan on showing/teaching me at the YWAM Kona base this summer, but I pray that you would show me more of your heart for others. I give myself to you.