God is holding on
This past year, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and encouraged to start taking antidepressants. For the first time in my life, I found myself inundated with thoughts of going to sleep and never waking up; yes, for me, life had become that hard and unbearable. What to do with pain that seems to be unshakeable and seems to affect every aspect of your life? Corrie Ten Boom once said, "no pit is so deep that He is not deeper still" - I will not let this season rob me of experiencing God's love and deep joy. The weight of His glory sits heavy on my heart and I am learning more and more about how above all else, God is zealous for His glory. Yes, His zeal for His glory to be showcased in my life will sustain me through this season. John Piper says that God's glory is the "radiance of his manifold, infinitely worthy and valuable perfections." I trust that this season of cloudiness will be used by God to reflect His perfect love, His perfect faithfulness, His perfect compassion.
And when the night is holding on to me
God is holding on
