this entry is going to be far from cohesive, because sometimes, i would rather hear my fingers tap away on the keyboard rather than stare blankly at the screen. stream of consciousness, ready, set, go. (well..., sorta). we sang in french today. professeur zadi has a fondness for singing french christian songs and it's awesome that i can start my day off worshiping god in another language. i've been here for three weeks now. the leaves are starting to change color, and i can feel a crispness in the air. i mostly miss my mom and the warmth she brings into my life. i miss her perspective and my conversations with her on the phone have been brief. life here at wheaton is a swirl and mesh of experiences that i haven't fully processed yet. time is many things here. i kinda feel rootless, and am scared that i'll take my experiences here for granted. pretty sure i'm making no sense at all. the people here are wonderful, but there's this nagging desire in me for something more. i'm sure intimacy will come with time. i want to be a blessing to the people around me. i don't want to forget the vision god gave me before i committed to this school. when i look back, i wonder what will have changed? i hope i can look back and see that i've become more humble, more compassionate, more desirous for god. sometimes when i'm in His presence my heart trembles with joy and i can truthfully and sincerely say that each heartbeat is in response to His perfect love for me. He captivates my heart. when i walk around campus, i see students praying with each other and edifying one another. when i'm studying, i can hear praise drifting towards me from one of the chapel rooms. onwards, onwards, we run towards christ in our daily lives.
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