these days there is a constant tension between good works and sanctification as an act of grace from God. these days, i'm ashamed because i feel like God should be more apparent in my life - i should have more self-control, i should have less pride, i should be more compassionate, the list goes on and on. did i mention that I feel guilty for coming before God with the same sins? oh yeah, i come before him with the same struggles and heartaches. and sometimes, i feel more healed than other days. but overall, i feel like i'm a let-down.

Stop.

I'm reminded again and again and again - each time i fall, each time i sin - that God knew the depth of my brokenness and sinfulness. That he reached out to me, and not me to him. That he sent his one and only Son to me. I can take a breath - a big one - and approach the cross.

God, you wouldn't have it any other way. You desire that I come before you broken and struggling with the same things. I come before you on this Good Friday and ask that I would be reminded of how much I need you and how much you love me.