I'm in the thick of finals, and am trying to wrap my head around organic chemistry, these past 9 months, relationships with friends, friends who i won't be seeing until next January, the summer ahead, the study abroad ahead.. Pause. Let's backtrack and zoom in on my spiritual life. I feel like I've put a pause button in my relationship with God. Somehow, this past month or so, I've gotten so caught up with other things and I feel like I'm emotionally and spiritually floating around. And of course, whenever that happens I tend to look at myself and selfishly think about myself and my own needs and wants (more so than usual). I am tired of the performance treadmill, and weary of comparing myself & not meeting up to my own standards. I am tired of a hard and dry heart. God, how can I extricate myself from this constant mentality of comparison or even this constant mentality of thinking about myself? I have yearnings and hopes for the next season in my life - I pray that you would ground me in your Word and in your presence and in your love. Turn me inside-out and I pray that this summer would be filled with growth, change, and a greater love for others.