I take my dignity and break it at your feet

For I have come to receive all You have for me.

This is my third week in Seoul, and I am currently navigating new waters. Quite honestly, I'm struggling with the pressures of this culture and i'm most definitely not at Wheaton. How do I stand firmly as a Christian in the midst of a culture that is saturated with self-gratification? For the first time, I am in a context where clubbing is a nightly ritual and where consuming alcohol is as natural as eating. How do I stand firmly when I myself want lose myself in the waves of worldly pleasures? Boundaries become hazy, and all of a sudden, I forget that I am supposed to be different. Right now, I don't know how to hold my relationships and still maintain my boundaries. Don't get me wrong, I haven't gone off the deep end but these are all new experiences that I am currently wrestling through. I feel that God is standing by, watching and testing me. And so far, I have given in to the pressures placed upon me.

So. This is a wake-up call and as this semester begins, I remind myself that like Daniel, I have to both live in the culture and be distinct from it. I know there is more that God wants to give me, and that He wants to meet me and take me into deeper intimacy. He wants to show me more, but that can only happen if I obey him and turn to him. God, I'm so weak. God, I am so so weak. I trust that you alone satisfy. Help me to settle for you and not for anything less. I have come to see. I have come to learn and grow. I have come to receive more of You.