The other week my therapist asked me to create a list of things i like about myself (in response to me telling her i was struggling with alot of negative self-talk and criticism) and it was a good to write down a few of the things i like about myself:
-self-awareness: i am quick to realize when i am at fault; quick to ask for forgiveness + have a desire to growth and change for the better
-i am able to set boundaries and i know my limits
-the ability to worship God in all seasons
-kingdom-sighted; i desire to see the bigger picture and to obey the Lord even when i don't understand
-high level of emotional intelligent
-a heart of intercession and a passion for prayer (and a desire to usher others into deeper/intimate spaces where they can encounter God)
-openness and ability to surrender + be lead by the lord
-i am disciplined (especially when it comes to running, reading the Word with Sarah) and can meet the goals i set for myself
-highly self-motivated in the things that i am interested in
-i like my silly, weird side; i like to laugh (even though this side of me ebb and flows depending on season)
-ability to have serious, deep conversations
-i try to give people the benefit of the doubt; approach them with little judgement
-i am someone who beats to my own drum, and am ok with that
-i like that i am clean, and enjoy cleaning + having a clean space
-i am able to practice gratitude on a daily basis
-thoughtful of others and desire to stretch myself more by being more considerate of others
-poetry as an expression of worship + an expansion of self-expression
Just to name a few. I'm realizing more and more that I can hold the negative and positive things about myself equally without letting the former overshadow the latter. Aren't the many attributes that make up a person what contributes to their uniqueness? And i am learning uniqueness is intimately tied to how deeply the Lord loves me for me. The good, the bad, the ugly - all of it is covered by his grace. I pray that this is the season where i can go deeper and where my perception of myself is marked by how God sees me.
Elizabeth shared with me a quote by St. Catherine of Siena that goes something like this: "Be who God meant you to be and you will set the world on fire." Perhaps all of life's journey is distilled down to coming back home to who God is, who we are, and how he has uniquely created me and you. Perhaps it is shedding what society expects me to be, who the enemy says i am and pressing keenly into journeying with the Lord and soaking up all that is revealed in the process. I pray that God would grow me, anoint me, use me to wake up those who slumber and set their hearts on fire for him.
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