God is good, all the time; all the time, God is good

these past few weeks have been draining. i feel like i've been under the scalpel... heart surgery. i thought that i was healed of my past - boy, was i wrong. i started college with residuals of the past and now that my freshman year is almost over, i realize that God wants to completely free me from the various forms of bondage that i've been under. i'm resurfacing and God has been teaching me more about myself.. i don't want to go into too much detail, but He's shifting the way i perceive him. whenever i turn to this one thing, i am allowing myself to believe in the lies that Satan has planted in my head. for example, when people turn to alcohol, drugs, sex, what have you, they're allowing themselves to believe in the lie that these things will bring them security and comfort, etc. by turning to anything that is not God, we're saying that God is not big enough to sustain and provide for us. i've been under this so-called "orphan-mentality" for a while now, and God has been opening my eyes to it. no. get behind me Satan. God, i ask that you would continue breaking these lies. i want to solely depend on you; provide for me in the ways only you can. I ask for truth; your Word is truth. You are truth.