Dear Abby

An excerpt from an email that i wrote my friend. i'm putting it here because i'm too lazy to write down all that has been going on these past few weeks. that's hawaii for ya. ;)

so.. this is my last week in hawaii. i haven't done a lot of journaling so i'm sure that it'll bite me in the butt when i'm home and trying to process 8 weeks. on friday i spent the whole night in the prayer room with a friend worshipping, praying, reading the bible, and occasionally sleeping. i've never spent a whole night in a prayer room but it was kinda magical praying at 2 in the morning. abby, this summer has been one of restoration and even though i came in with low expectations, God really really broke through and allowed me to encounter His love once again. i realized that for 9 months, i was putting Jesus in a wheelchair and saying that He was unable to heal me and all my junk. for those 9 months, i truly felt like i was drowning and in a place where no one was able to meet me. at the beginning of mission builders, a lady prayed for me and said that Jesus was doing CPR on me and reviving me. and he has. he truly has. He has become a bigger God and even though i'm nervous about going back home, i feel that my time here is done. I feel stronger in my faith and i know that i'm not the same person going back. it's so funny because Satan likes to attack me in the same way with the same tactics but God has been equipping me with reminders of His presence and with the fact that Jesus resides in me and I have the power to invoke the authority of Jesus Christ. Also - Jesus is victorious. the enemy has got nothing on me. this is what i've been (re)learning these days and i pray that the cross and redemption would continue becoming bigger and bigger in my life. i'm happy because loving God is so effortless these days - i just go into the prayer room and sit there with Him. no words, just thoughts and sometimes quietness.