Humble Musings

I sense a uniqueness to this season that is marking me in new ways and I want to hit pause for a moment. Indeed, what is different about this season is that I have been carving out some time each morning to read the Bible. A counterweight to the heavier moments of these past few months has been the truth outlined in scripture. Interestingly, the moments when I'm actually reading the Bible aren't marked by intense emotional revelation. The act of reading scripture is kinda mundane, actually. I turn off whatever background acoustic worship music I have on and just start reading. I then text Sarah my thoughts on the passage I just looked at and then send her another text that is a prayer. She responds and does the same and I respond with an 'amen' or a comment or two. It's all pretty low-key and yet, consistent/constant exposure to the Bible is doing something within me that is very much countercultural. Instant gratification is delayed and something richer and mysterious is being gifted to me. I am learning more about God and my emotional and subjective experiences are being grounded on objective truths. And ultimately, when my emotions cause me to think twice about who God is and cause me to doubt his goodness, I am able to turn to scripture and submit my emotions to the authority of what the Word says about the Lord. 

In all of this, I am reminded that I am just skimming the surface of who God is and how he wants humankind to experience his love. In a day and age that is so saturated with so many imitations of god and objects of affection, it is easy to settle and ignore the deeper whisper that there must be something else, something more. I do not want my heart to be captivated by anything other than what will fully satisfy my heart, spirit, and soul. I guess my prayer for myself is that God's love for me would propel me into deeper waters and that my capacity to love God and people would expand more and more.