even when the people around me have moved on, i will be persistent in pursuing them. and if this is too much, i will make it known to them that i am right here whenever they need me. even when i don't want to love them, i will continue to ask God to first change me and have his love for them overflow through me. God is patient, and He is slowly but surely working in me. I don't want to be the kind of person to withhold love or compassion from somebody simply because I don't feel a certain type of positive emotion. Jesus calls us to love one another - i wish i saw more of this unceasing type of love for others in myself. too often my love for others is wrapped up in self-gain and an ego-boost. shallow, right? my perception of love is skewed. but i don't despair because God has shown me, has shown us love that is true and pure. God desires for me to have agape love towards those I encounter.