it's only been a couple of days since I've been home but Satan has been quick to start his spiritual attacks. I am home and am definitely in spiritual warfare right now. My first night I dreamt that I was by my mom's side. She wasn't well, and I started praying for her out loud in my dream. At that moment, I felt something physically being stuffed down my throat that made it so I couldn't pray. I woke up from my sleep and my hands went to my throat. I know that during my time here, Satan wants to silence me. I need to be filled with the Holy Spirit and cling unto the Word every single day. Truth is so skewed here. The Bible is truth and I need to make sure I am spending time in the Word everyday.

My heart weeps because the church here is sleeping. I saw this at my church yesterday. The congregation is spiritually sleeping. Even during my time here, I know how Satan will try to get me to be ineffective. While I'm here for the next two weeks, I need to make sure to stick to a couple of things, such as going to early morning prayer service every morning, reading the bible/spending time with God everyday, obeying my mom and saying 'yes' to everything that she asks me to do, to name a few. this is all necessary training before i leave for amsterdam. at the end of the day, i'm not sure what will have been harder: my time here in utah or the 10 weeks in amsterdam. i feel like satan has put a spell over this valley and that everyone slumbers away oblivious to their current state. it's frightening. Awake, church. awake, people of God. awake, awake, awake.