i find myself acquiescing to this great numbing lie that things are always going to be this way. God, hold unto me more and more tightly. I need more of your grace, I need more of your mercy, I need more of your perspective and joy. i lift up these waves and waves of hopelessness that keep pounding me & taking me under. Help me to stop focusing on myself and focus on you instead. Father, i've been settling for silly futile idols and i am unsatisfied. I am left unsatisfied. help me to make space in my heart for you to teach me and heal me. Father, forgive me, a sinner.